Spring is in the air...

   Not yet, not yet you may say. You  are rushing, my dear. Even birds, they were singing or better say chirping last week here and there and then it's cold again, bitterly cold. Nature looks frozen, swallowed by snow, greedy snow that does not want to melt at all this winter.
  I wonder how immigrants who came from warm countries feel in Canada this winter, because this season here stays especially long and cold.
  I am sick again - second time during this winter with nasty cold that does not want to go away at all.
  May be it will disappear together with that old treacherous snow that does not look inviting in a big city at this time of the year.
  When spring comes I always want to go away somewhere, to get rid of everything I have and just run away. I never do that. No, not true. Many-many years ago I dropped everything and everybody and left to Canada with 3 small kids and 2 suitcases. And it was early spring too. And for many years I regretted that decision bitterly but could do nothing about that. Some things you cannot undo. But that's another story. Today we are talking about spring.
  After short warm nice breezy weeks hot humid summer comes and I do not feel that way. I just feel like hiding from all that debilitating heat somewhere. I cannot imagine living in a country that has only 2 seasons - hot humid, very hot like 50C and then rainy season. For me after hot summer there should be some snow and some cold. But in Canada at least in Ontario all that humidity in winter kills all pleasure from a nice frosty day, because it makes you cold so fast that you just have to run from one shelter to another - home - bus - store - work -bus- store - home. A stroll in the park anyone? When it's minus 20 and windchill adds 10 more?
 May be I should invite a polar bear for a company or at least borrow his thick skin? I don't know if they make bear coats but I know that my ship-skin coat helps me to survive very nicely. Bless my friend's generous soul, who gave it to me I do not have to freeze this winter!
   It's nice to have friends. I've lost so many of them - just one left. And with my lifestyle no hope to have new ones. Work - home - chores -sleep - work - who will break that circle? Can I afford to do that?
  I envy people who managed to drop everything and leave and survive... No! I cannot think like that, it's not spring yet. It's still winter in Toronto, I still have time to summon some courage and may be one day break my old routine for good. Spring is in the air... no, sorry, my mistake, it's  abandoned security box on a wall chirping and I have no idea how to turn it off. Oops!